No Paws In The House

On Saturday, August 3rd, 2013 a very special soul left the earth.  Her name was Henrietta Hartzell-Curran and she was eighty years old…in dog years. Almost twelve in human years. She was the niece of Herschell who had gone to the rainbow bridge on June 4th, 2012. In that instant when she breathed her last… my consolation was that they were… together again.

But, how different everything is for Jack and I. It is almost deafening noiselessness that has replaced the restless activity of them running, barking or scampering to the treat jar. Like music to my ears, those sounds for thirteen years crowded our day with responsibility for their needs that actually filled our needs.  The holes in our hearts are  fresh, also torn, and it will take  time to heal.

henriettacloseupWe have received wonderful, heartfelt emails and a few cards. My granddaughter made a card stating that they had returned to God.  That thought is comforting at times but then again not a few moments later. One thing, I have learned about grief is that going through the process is essential in order to love again, because that love will be different.

Several people have asked if we are getting another dog. Almost impossible for me to imagine right now but when my heart heals, it may be considered. Venturing into picture albums is impossible and really not necessary.  We both have actual visions of life with Herschell and Henrietta. Twelve years of adventures, escapades and endless hours of sitting close together.  These are the gifts of loving a dog, or dogs in our case. I believe they have enriched our own love story over the years.

The thoughts on this paper are the beginning of stories in the future. For now, these words are all the energy I have in expressing myself.  But…that is okay.

About the Author

Maryann Hartzell-Curran, a retired educator and counselor, has written a personal account of her journey through the first year of grieving the loss of her husband in her book, “From We to Me,” to help support those who have suffered the loss of a loved one. Maryann founded a successful family therapy practice and taught in the public and private sectors. She also founded and directed a church-based preschool in Lombard, Ill., and gained experience working with the elderly as director of a senior dining center. She has a bachelor’s degree in education from the University of Wisconsin and a master’s degree in counseling from Illinois Benedictine University.

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  1. Kelly Rhodes says:

    Mar,
    This is such a sweet tribute to Henrietta. I am sure the house is super quiet. Should you change your mind,I can FedEx Klaus or Maggie to y’all. We send you our love. They love their Great Auntie and Uncle.
    Xoxo,your Tx kids

  2. Liny says:

    What a cute picture of Henrietta, Maryann
    By the way thank you for the picture card of her she had such a sweet face, soo much expression.

    Sukki had her last visit to the vet yesterday, she is doing a lot better . He thinks it was an allergy that caused her ears to flii up.

    Stay well dear Maryan,, love you Liny

  3. Liny says:

    What a cute picture, she was very photographic, lots of expressions.

    Sukki had her last visit to the vet ,according to him she had an allergy, that affected her ears, 2drops in both ears once a week for the next 4 weeks, that should do it.

    Hope you and jack are doing better, stay well, love Liny

  4. molly says:

    Mary,
    My heart goes out to you at this difficult time. As i am writing this, my little pal, Calvin, is sitting besides me, as always; my forever companion. There truly is nothing like the love of a dog. They are angels – I believe that with all my heart. I hope you will remember all the love and smiles your little friends brought to you in their short, but no doubt, full lives. I hope your heart heals quickly my dear.
    With love,
    Molly